It's not uncommon for the artist or creator to have a trajectory that has its peaks and troughs, rises and falls, victories and losses. Like the tide we are ever changing and never find ourselves stagnant in one position for too long. As a highly creative person I know how freaky it can be losing your current spark of creativity and being left to wonder if it will ever return. At these times doubt can kick in and it can end up really thrashing you around and leaving you worse off.
The past week I've been on a high, I had some realisations and made peace with certain aspects of myself that I felt were holding me back but today, and I don't know whether it's because of the dream I had or numerous conversations (probably assisted by both), I woke with the muddy swirling clouds of doubt in my head.
Doubt tends to make an unwelcome guest appearance for me when I pay a little too much attention to what others are saying and how they're choosing to be. I start to ask questions that end up belittling my sense of self and the choices I am making for my own life. I don't carry a victim mentality and don't really want to go there with this blog in particular but, being a creative in such a left brain world so far has not shown itself to be very kind.
I've bumped into many 'logic' thinkers that don't mind telling you that your true creative essence is not enough to give you everything you need. An education with a high paying respectful job that contributes to society no matter how much it makes you feel imprisoned is the way to go. We'll I'm here to say fuck that.
If you know what you want, who you are and what you need to thrive, I believe you have everything within you to have the success you desire. As much as this is a reminder for whoever out there is reading and needs this boost, I am writing this for myself right here, right now too.
This is all a part of being human, accept it then go and make mindbogglingly good art.
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