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Hate Or Resentment?

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Complete disclosure: the past five weeks of my life have been chaotic and filled with lot's of emotional pain. I lost touch with myself and what made me happy and focused too much on what didn't.On the surface I was angry and wanted to be somewhat vocally violent at people that were triggering me. It wasn't hatred or personal and I definitely wasn't going to act on my very irrational unplanned acts of romanticised violence but these feelings just didn't seem to be subsiding and it was affecting my relationships, well being and mental health. I don't think I have ever been so actively angry in my daily life ever and can now gladly say the storm has passed. 


Just like my passion of solving the Broadchurch mysteries I needed to get to the root of these feelings because I didn't want to live this way for another day.
Key word: RESENT
The weight that lifted when this word came to me mid diary scribble was immense, like I had been carrying around all my anger in the…

What Fatigue Is Trying To Tell You

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My goodness this feels good to back and typing away. I apologise for my sudden departure with little to no explanation but I *hope* I am back for regular posting! My weeks have been completely swallowed by my most recent endeavor; I am currently in the process of gaining my certificates in fitness! I've been on the fitness train for a little while now so getting to a position where I'm going to be considered a 'fitness professional' is a little bit cool.
I am required to attend Tafe four full days a week and for a girl who hasn't lived on a school schedule for a solid 7 years it has been intense and fatigue has slapped me in the face. By the end of every week I have been moody and depleted of any kind of emotional nutrients so writing a blog has been something I've been happy to place in the backseat (only till I get my things back in order!).
Since I am currently dealing with end-of-week fatigue and I know a lot of people are too I thought we'd touch on that…